Me, age 38 Me, age 2-3 As far back as I can remember, I’ve always been fat/chubby/big. There has never been a time in my life where I have been small or thin. I was teased and called “fat pig” almost all my childhood. I was always the fat kid in class. I HATED P.E.…… Continue reading Why I went into the fitness industry… a fat girls story about going into a fatphobic industry
This is only ONE form of gaslighting.
I’ve been staring at the fire for a while. It’s heat burned me. It burnt my clothes. It took my hair, it stole my mind. My mind….. or my heart? One in the same. It slowly consumed me insidiously. Like a small leak. It’ll creep in, take little bits of you…. you feel something is…… Continue reading Diamond
Believe people when they tell you they’ve been abused. Parents, if your child tells you they’ve been abused, believe them and then fucking do something about it. Don’t the pretend like nothing happened!
The following is a copy of an article I wrote for an outlet that I no longer contributed to. I wanted to make sure it was saved here. Grief is weird. It is overwhelming and shows up at both the most unexpected and expected times. I recently lost my Grandma. It’s been a lot harder…… Continue reading Grief Has No End Date
*This is a recount of my trip to California. If it seems like my writing is out of order or a mess it’s because that’s where my head is at right now. Please excuse that. California is many things to me. It is where I and my siblings were born. It is where I called…… Continue reading California, home at last
If you’ve followed along on my journey in any capacity you know that I struggle with my mental health. Most recently I had been doing relatively good. However, we all have triggers and if we don’t know how to deal with the triggers as they come then shit blows up in your face, again. *FYI…… Continue reading Mental health Care is a Fucking joke!
This past year has been extremely hard for me in regards to my weight loss efforts and journey. At the beginning of the year I started out at my lowest weight, recorded. I have fluctuated 2-5 pounds ever since and it’s super annoying. What was I doing wrong? I was working out, eating keto, watching…… Continue reading My weight loss journey- continued
I can’t sleep so I guess I’ll write. I didn’t take my sleeping pill last night (a few hours ago) and this is what happens when I don’t; I stay up until 2:15am pondering life. Today is different, though. Today, August 24th 2017 marks 28 years since my father was murdered. I always try to…… Continue reading 28 years of missed moments….