At 37 I really excepted that I would have a lot more figured out. I thought I would for sure be over childhood traumas like my father being murdered or never knowing my dads side of the family. I thought I would for sure love myself more by now. That being fat wasn’t the worst…… Continue reading 37 and still fat
*This is a recount of my trip to California. If it seems like my writing is out of order or a mess it’s because that’s where my head is at right now. Please excuse that. California is many things to me. It is where I and my siblings were born. It is where I called…… Continue reading California, home at last
If you’ve followed along on my journey in any capacity you know that I struggle with my mental health. Most recently I had been doing relatively good. However, we all have triggers and if we don’t know how to deal with the triggers as they come then shit blows up in your face, again. *FYI…… Continue reading Mental health Care is a Fucking joke!
TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ this post deals with mental health issues: anxiety, depression, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, self harm, suicidal thoughts and hospitalization. It’s been a while. I’ve been thinking about this entry for quite some time. Since I wrote my last one, honestly. It’s just really overwhelming and a lot has happened since this happened…… Continue reading Girl interrupted….. Part 3- last entry
Grief…. it’s a funny little thing that grief is. It shows its ugly, sad face and manifests in weird ways that are not quite understood unless you have your PhD in psychology; which I do not. What I do know is that grief sometimes comes through as anger and vice versa. Grief is not only…… Continue reading Grief ….
TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ this post deals with mental health issues: anxiety, depression, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, self harm, suicidal thoughts and hospitalization. Let’s see, where did I leave off? Ah, yes. The nurse escorted me back to a room where she took my vitals and had me pee in a cup. They have to ensure…… Continue reading Girl, Interrupted. Part 2
TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ this post deals with mental health issues: anxiety, depression, eating disorder, body dysmorphia, self harm, suicidal thoughts and hospitalization. On Friday, May 4th, I started out my day feeling pretty ok. Nothing out of the ordinary, really. Soon after waking I began to feel pretty bad. Feelings of self hate. Hate towards…… Continue reading Girl, Interrupted…. Part 1